Craving

Oh to feel peace,
To find it
Living somewhere I had not looked before.
I say I crave it
I say I dream to find it
But am I lying to everyone?
Am I lying to myself?
I seek peace
But I continue to look
Where I know it lives not
Why?
Do I crave peace?
Or do I crave the idea
Of being a person who does?
Every time
I breathe calmly
And feel that sensation
Of peace
Washing over my body and my mind
I find ways to destroy it
Subtly
So that it leaves me
And I am back fighting the same battles
I was fighting before.
Do I truly desire peace?
Or do I need chaos
Passion
Destruction
Madness
To survive?
Maybe one can simply survive
On the belief that peace,
Inner peace, 
Can save them,
Even though it’s all
Simply
A
Lie.

Original Work: KH 10/14/14

A Prayer For All Of My Fellow Lost Souls

May you find
Peace in the eye of the tornado
Forever living in your mind
A safe harbor from the turbulent waves
That will always rock your soul
Shelter from the earthquake
That cracks wide open your heart
A quiet corner to escape to
When you’re wildly overwhelmed
By all of your consuming thoughts
A field of wildflowers to lie in
When you need to remember how to breathe
A roof to cover your tired head
When the storms coming rolling in
Unexpectedly
A warm, soft bed to sleep in
When your mind has had enough
And can simply take no more of life
Or living
And you beg for sleep
A plane to take you far away
From the demons that you’re running from
That will forever live inside of you
Love in unexpected places
When you never see it coming
But need it more than anything
Calm when madness seeps into your thoughts
Again
And again
And again
Joy in dreams fulfilled
And acceptance in dreams lost
Contentment that lasts
Not just happiness that fades with time
Although a dash of happiness I also wish for you
But above all
I wish you luck
In finding your path
And enjoying your journey,
And hope.
I wish for you to have hope.
May you be hopeful in every lost place,
Every broken heart,
Every tear fueled loss.
I wish for hope
For all of my fellow lost souls
May you always remember
That hope,
Is what guides the lost soul home.

Original Work: KH 9/17/14

Bless

You make me believe in goodness
And you make me hopeful
And that’s enough for me right now
You’re like sunshine
In the endless grey sky of my life
When I see you I smile
I feel at peace
And for a moment
Alright
You remind me of hearing an angel sing
Or the beauty of a pattern
On a butterfly’s wing
And I don’t care if that sounds cheesy
It’s true
It’s how I see the world
So let me be
Thank you for just existing
In this moment that’s what I need
You’re a blessing
And not a curse
When things could only get worse
You brought me back up
And held me tight
And I felt ok that whole damn night
Take flight
My heart
Find your way
To that love that makes you feel
Alive
Bless you
And bless your soul
You’re slowly filling the hole
That lives inside my heart
Your light shines into the horizon
And stretches for eternity
And I could walk toward
That ever disappearing point
Of no return
Forever
If it meant
I’d be warmed by your love
And light
I see you shining like the stars
Until the universe ends
Forever
And ever
And ever
And ever
And ever
And-

Original Work: KH 9/11/14

Peace

Come to me
And share my love
But please bring with you
A little peace
And break me a piece
If you’d please
I’d be ever so grateful
To feel the calm
That lives within your heart
That blesses your soul
Let the light shine out
Of your green eyes
And into my own
Let your love live inside me
Until I’m brought back to life
And the grey clouds of rainy afternoons
Depart
And leave me just blue skies
I want a world of sunshine
To fill every pore of your skin
And mine
Until we light up the world
All I want are your hands
And the brown curls atop your head
As we roll inside our cotton sheets
Love igniting the sunset in the sky
Burning in the backdrop on my golden hair
As you look up at me
Together in the last moments of the world
Bring me peace when you come
And I’ll give you all the passion of my heart
I think I have a bit too much.

Original Work: KH 8/29/14

Today

Today, as I’m sat here in a nice chair, with the windows open, feeling the slightly cool breeze of a late summer’s day, the sun shining against the blue sky, I find contentment. I remember that at times it is the simple things, the quiet moments, that are the most beautiful.

I am glad that the slight mania I was experiencing yesterday (that I am prone to experience from time to time), has passed, and I am able to appreciate the beauty of a lovely afternoon in late August, as the last weeks of summer make their debut, before autumn takes the stage to steal summer’s spotlight.

Sometimes, the quiet moments are exactly what you need.

B is for Bloomsbury

My home away from home
My light in London’s dreary skies
My summer heart lives eternal
Where we all said our goodbyes
In the quiet moments
On those late summer afternoons
Beneath the tall, tall trees
That stood outside my window
Which was open to the London breeze
Or rain, or thunder, or maybe even sun
I still feel my feet walking
Toward our quiet corner pub
Tucked away from London noise
My tears could fill those pint glasses
As I sit and reminisce
Let me read Virginia Woolf
Next door to where she lived
And feel history beneath my feet
And writers souls do haunt these streets
I close my eyes and see myself
Standing there beneath the leaves
of Bloomsbury’s tall, tall trees
And I feel fully happy
Maybe even a bit relieved
And possibly
For once
Just maybe
Even a little bit at peace.

Original Work: KH 8/22/14

Haunted Voices

Oh but all those voices in my head
They ring and sing
And tell me all the things
I never need to hear
They whisper all those sad memories
That I try to keep out of my thoughts
And bring back all that melancholy
I thought I swept away
Into that dusty, haunted corner
Of my mind
But those voices they help them live another day
And remind me of the faults I wish weren’t there
And I can even feel my self doubt
Through the long strands of my hair
How they permeate my existence
When I wish and pray to feel better
And some days sun shines brightly
Through that window of my mind
And I forget those voices that weigh me down
And find peace and quiet at times
I feel lovely, free, and quite alive
And breathe deeply because I can
And drown those voices again and again
Or at least play the music so loud
All I hear are those singing voices in my ears
Day in
Day out
Breathe in
Breathe out

Original Work: KH 7/9/14

Forgive Me

Forgive me Father
For I have sinned
To my melancholy
I am pinned
And I made promises I could not keep
That I would let it go
And learn to sleep
I would find my calm and peace
Not through whiskey oh so cheap
But in the light
Where my heart yearns to go
After it was frozen
By unforgiving ice and snow
In endless pursuit of happy days
In a field of flowers
My soul does wish to lay
As tall grass waves in the breeze of May
And my heart does feel
The sun of of joyous day
Where I should be anyway
As my sleep eyes do close
And I drift away

But my heart is still broken
In several unfixable places
And I walk this empty path
Searching for all those lost graces
Where sunbeams warm
And dreams fly high
And no one ever
Has to say goodbye
But I still search
A fog covers my kind earth
And dark clouds hover
Over my green eyes
Until I can’t tell the difference
Between the darkness and the light
And I know its wrong
On a sea adrift
I float so lost
A captain-less ship
But I do seek the light
The light so bright
That will one day burst
With all its might
And finally end
This endless night.

Original Work: KH 6/29/14

To The Sea…

…And the waves crashed and rolled,
Bringing back the love I lost,
The love I lost brought back to me,
The love I lost,
To the wild and untamed sea,
Where you dissolved into the salty scape,
Your spirit swirled with the deepest blue,
Until there was nothing left of you,
And you were gone,
And drifting into nothingness,
Nothingness and everything,
Together tightly laced,
Lost to eternity’s
Gripping, endless
Embrace,
You were floating gently,
Through unobstructed time,
As the crystal water danced
To the rhythm of your beating heart,
With such passion it would pound,
It moved the floor and sky of sea,
As you lay between the water sheets,
Of the ocean bed you now called home,
As you had left me quietly alone,
And you embarked on life untamed,
Your mind demanded refuge,
In a world untouched by shame,
And you loved those simple moments,
Blissful, and tasting of empty peace,
As nature swallowed you whole,
A curse upon it’s unique domain,
It ate you alive,
Until you were lost in it’s wild home,
Until you began to drown,
And there was nothing there to save you,
Dear love, the sea cannot hold you,
It will smother you instead,
It will end you, and think not twice,
You reached to sky,
Your feet traced the grains of sand to shore,
Waves did roll and crash on repeat,
As the sun warmed you with its heat,
And brought once again your lost soul to land,
Into our dear, earthly home,
Into our sheet-tangled bed.

Original Work: KH 5/23/14